as a warning...this blog gets pretty personal...will post something dumb later

so yeah, it has been a while since i have posted...and probably for the first time the main reason was not laziness. it has now been over a month since louise and i have broken up and i have been in a constant state of changing moods. things have been very up and down (more down than up, but that is to be expected) and i didn't want to get all emo and start posting tmi, but whatever....it's way better now than it would have been a few weeks ago and this is my blog...i do what i want. but to sum things up, the situation has been a mix of appreciating a little space and freedom mixed with loneliness and missing louise. i think we both know that this is probably best for both of us, and although it seems extremely doubtful, i am not completely counting out the possibility of us getting back together.

one thing that is weird is that now that i am single, dave is suddenly in a relationship...i'm guessing that, due to our ying and yang situation, if i ever end up in another relationship...dave and katie's days as a couple are doomed. it also brings to light how almost all of my friends are married or are in serious relationships which does make me feel a little out of place and loserish, but i guess that means i need to hang out more with my single friends. i dunno. it's all very weird and even though i am ok most of the time, i miss a lot of little things and because i still live where we lived together, i am often reminded of her. i definitely went through a mopey, feeling sorry for myself faze where i was probably drinking a little too heavily, but i think i am past that now and am trying to get a better perspective on things. dave seems to think my drunk-texting louise is not helping anything.

anyways, i am still keeping busy with random things. hopefully ben and i can make a comic happen. a bunch of people's b-days are coming up. brodie will be moving into our basement. i hope to do a sport of some kind this spring or summer. i have regressed in my efforts to get in shape, but will hopefully get back on track soon. i am considering taking some science classes at maryland to see if i can actually learn them this time around and to see if i want to pursue a new profession. and i guess at some point i have to try to talk to girls again....yikes....hey ladies, i hope you like awkward guys with zero game.